"i'm not a poet, but I write some songs..." -drez

After reading that my first thought is to be absolutely livid. And on second thought, my first thought is completely out of line, completely ridiculous, and I am in no position to be angry at all which, frankly, sucks. So, as I sit here contemplating something that, in retrospect, is not really a big deal and in five years I will just be able to classify as another one of my 'dramatic episodes', but for now it seems like the biggest and most critical life decision ever, i really dont know what to do. It has never been this complicated, this difficult, and I have never been so without control.

So what next? What do you do when you are faced with this? A situation where you really are just a player in someone else's game. Its like they've got the home advantage and you become and instant mess. In a typical situation such like this I'd fight back, but this is not a typical situation for me and I am kind of sick and a little bit tired. I guess I cant give up without one last battle cry, but I really am just kinda tired of EVERYTHING.

I know what time it is and so do you.

I have something that I really want to say, but Im not going to because I'm too fucking proud and too ridiculous.