"Im the bitch ya'll love to hate" -kelis

Seems as if I have earned myself a bit of a following. Hope you're enjoying this.

1. I curse too much
2. I drink (often)
3. I sometimes ignore phone calls from my friends
4. I talk shit about other people
5. I can be very selfish
6. I am dramatic
7. I am wasteful
8. I think Im better than some people
9. I judge people constantly
10. I am jealous

1. I am caring
2. I am beautiful
3. I pray for the happiness of others daily
4. I am intelligent
5. I am helpful
6. I let people know they are appreciated
7. I am dynamic
8. I am open-minded
9. I would do anything to make life easier and better for the people that are closest to my heart
10. I am passionate

It has been about a week since my last update. Not a whole lot has happened. Last weeked ended up being super fun tho. I dont remember what happened on Friday, but whatever it was Im sure involved me and Laron being slightly intoxicated...and by slightly I mean very lol Saturday was real random and real cool. Me, Lil ron, brandon, and calvin went to Adams Morgan and ended up having a good ass drunken time at Common Share. Sunday was Lil ron's "2 decade" as we came to call it lol We went to Bus Boys and Poets with a whole group of people and it ended up bein really nice and really chill. Last weekend made me really happy. Just happy enough to get me through this week with a smile on my face and in my heart :-)

On Monday night an interesting conversation was had with someone very important to me. There are very few people who know the real me, but he is one of them. And while I allow myself to be (almost) totally vulnerable and (almost) totally available to him against all better judgement, I dont feel threatened and I am, in some ways, comforted. It was a good moment and it allowed for a few important things to change in my mind. It might take a lot for other people to understand why I do what I do. My best advice to those who dont "get me" (or my actions, motives, etc.) is to stop trying. Unless I grant you permission, you will forever be in the dark. For now, I just want to take two seconds to say that I really really appreciate you and our frienship and all of our fun and crazy advertures. I appreciate and value immensely all that you have taught me about the world, other people, and myself, because it really is a lot more than you realize. You are forever going to be someone special in my heart. I will always always be there for you, no matter what. And though (I dont think?) you read this, i just hope that you know.

With that said, I want to let YOU know that we are not different at all. In fact, we are probably alike in many more ways than you'd (or even I'd) know. I don't hate you, and I'm not sure if you hate me or not, but if you do you shouldn't. In fact, I'd like to be your friend. I know you read this, and I hope you know this is about you. Maybe its a scorpio thing...