"i just died"

Today marks the first night of what I anticipate will be a GREAT weekend. It is going to be GREAT because I've decided it will. And we all know then when I decide something...it happens lol

Last night I was really going through it. I went to my secret place and just cried and listened to Mos Def and lit myself up a black and I stayed there until I had no more tears left. I definitely needed that little break from the rest of the world. I still am rather non-conclusive about certain things, but at least I am now in a better mind set to deal and approach these issues with a more clear head. I am kind of starting to think that this is past the point of fun, and has crossed into a realm where I am being seriously fucked with. Has it? I think what Im looking for right now is someone to protect me. I have no idea what Im being protected from, but i think thats what Im missing. And I think thats why I want to go home so badly. I want to see familiar places and familiar faces and navigate smoothly down familiar roads and eat familiar food and be SAFE. LA is a place where I rule and no one can tell me anything because its MY city. Oh how I love Los Angeles.


"There are two types of guys, the guys that will hold your hand and the guys that will fuck you" -Samantha Jones, Sex and The City
how profound...