Holiday Girl
It certainly has been a while. Since my last post a lot has gone on, and all of it, im thrilled to say, has been wonderful. My last week of freedom was spent in the great company of some of my favorite people. (Shoutouts to my fave friends! You all know who you are!) We definitely brought in this school year with a BANG! Highlights include UTC as a nightly event (1015 boys!), Yazzy Fresh's b-day, attempts to attend a gogo, many (sequential) nights of intoxication, Adam's house, and finally Yazzy's 80's themed birthday party! It was all so great and Im sad to see summer end, however, all good things must come to an end.
In reference to this last statement, I cant help but question if it is or isnt time for this good thing to end. It has been a summer of adventures, secrets, laughter, stories, good (i'm talkin REAL good) lovin, stimulating conversation, and all around fun. I was taught to appreciate the simple joys in life, amongst other things. Now that the school year has started, I kind of feel like this good summer thing is coming to an end and it makes me so sad. With the school year comes classes, conflicting schedules, meetings, distractions, other people/interests/friends and obligations, all of which take away from time that I would otherwise use to foster and salvage the remnants of my fabulous, wonderful, good summer thing. Was this just a "summer thing"? Am I just the "summer girl"? Is he just the "summer boy"? I suppose if it was i'd be okay with it. I'd be sad, but i'd be okay eventually. I dont know whether or not to make attempts to perpetuate this good, fabulous, wonderful, amazing summer thing (and potentially make it a fall, winter, spring, and all year round thing...a forever thing, if there were such a thing as forever) or if I should just let it fade into the narrowly distant past. Not only does this new year bring conflicting schedules but it also brings other people/interests. I dont think I can continue to walk with my head held high around this campus of Howard University knowing in the recesses of my mind that I am, essentially, one of many. I suppose I should have applied Carrie Bradshaw's advice more efficiently when she advised to, "Keep it light, don't get too involved, don't get hurt." Well, I'm invested now and I dont want to let go and it hurts. Maybe I should just hold on to my good, great, wonderful, fabulous, perfect, summer thing...at least until Im ready to let it go.
In reference to this last statement, I cant help but question if it is or isnt time for this good thing to end. It has been a summer of adventures, secrets, laughter, stories, good (i'm talkin REAL good) lovin, stimulating conversation, and all around fun. I was taught to appreciate the simple joys in life, amongst other things. Now that the school year has started, I kind of feel like this good summer thing is coming to an end and it makes me so sad. With the school year comes classes, conflicting schedules, meetings, distractions, other people/interests/friends and obligations, all of which take away from time that I would otherwise use to foster and salvage the remnants of my fabulous, wonderful, good summer thing. Was this just a "summer thing"? Am I just the "summer girl"? Is he just the "summer boy"? I suppose if it was i'd be okay with it. I'd be sad, but i'd be okay eventually. I dont know whether or not to make attempts to perpetuate this good, fabulous, wonderful, amazing summer thing (and potentially make it a fall, winter, spring, and all year round thing...a forever thing, if there were such a thing as forever) or if I should just let it fade into the narrowly distant past. Not only does this new year bring conflicting schedules but it also brings other people/interests. I dont think I can continue to walk with my head held high around this campus of Howard University knowing in the recesses of my mind that I am, essentially, one of many. I suppose I should have applied Carrie Bradshaw's advice more efficiently when she advised to, "Keep it light, don't get too involved, don't get hurt." Well, I'm invested now and I dont want to let go and it hurts. Maybe I should just hold on to my good, great, wonderful, fabulous, perfect, summer thing...at least until Im ready to let it go.
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