"You must not know bout me"

I feel like someone, you to be exact, has just stabbed me directly in the heart. Is that what this is? Heartbreak at its best? Would I take it all back if I could? Not a chance. Was it worth it? Hell no. Two very different questions, with the same exact response. And so ends this saga. As of now my speech is lost, I only have words and tears. As a parting, this is the most I have to offer

"I want you to fall in love...somehow that will put me at ease/I want you to look into another woman's eyes...and let her know you could never lie/ I want you to hug her and kiss her and give her your heart, attention, and affection/ I want you to put it down on her, make love to her, propose to her, maybe even marry her/ i want you to show her the world...and buy her gifts like diamonds and pearls.../...but most importantly, I want her to give you a reason to love her back...because you would have given her the only thing you couldn't give me/...And somehow that will put me at ease"

I dont really know what else to say, or what else to do but continue on living my life. I guess I should thank you for the time that we shared. I love you and always will, but its going to be hard right now and I hope you understand that. I do not plan to allow this tragic circumstance to plague me any longer. Thank you.