I havent been sad in a long time, but I am sad today. I am reaching hard for new things to make me forget about the old things. Unfortunately, the harder I search for something new the more I think about what I both love and loathe about that something old. I cannot wait for the day when I can wake up and feel indifference towards that great old thing. I'd like to recall memories and have them evoke feelings of nothingness, I'd like to offer a smile that is compelled by nothing, and I'd like to have a day go by where thoughts of the old thing are simply nothing.
Jamal stole my sidekick. Asshole.
These days I just am not mean to win.
"Everybody winds up kissing the wrong person goodnight" -Andy Warhol
19 years of kissing the wrong people goodnight and counting. This is becoming taxing on my soul.
