"And in LA every chick's an actress, Hollywood status..."

My time home has been fun. I guess it is true that you never realize what you've got until its gone. I never realized how much I loved Los Angeles until I left this beautiful city and became a resident of the dirty dirty District. Since being away I have come to realize how much LA has to offer. It is a massive fusion of various cultures and styles from around the world and it really has an identity and subculture all its own. It now makes sense to me when outsiders say that LA people are a little different, maybe even a little off. And i totally accept that. And I totally love that.

My name is Alicia. I am from Los Angeles. And I might be just a little off, a little crazy, or a little bit loco, but I am from LA, so that makes it alright.

An LA girl, especially one like me, is special and needs to be treated and loved accordingly. As far as finding someone to love me with all of my LAness and my specialness, my search has been amounting to ZERO! It is partially depressing and partially relieving. I feel like I want someone to love me, but I dont want to reciprocate the efforts. I feel like being loved, but i dont feel like loving. Maybe not that I dont feel like loving, but I am scared of loving. I really just dont want to get sucked into another situation where I am completely invested in someone who's ultimate actions don't reflect the same investment or EVEN the slightest hint that they once ever really cared. I dont think my heart could handle it. So, essentially, in the area of LOVE I am at a standstill. At this point I want to rid myself of all past/present "situations", which is definitely easier said than done, but worth a try nonetheless. There is really only "one thing" that I havent been able to let go of...Im trying, I really am :-
For now, "Keep it light, dont get too involved, dont get hurt" -Carrie Bradshaw

I find it funny that no matter where i am in life, I still have thoughts of you in the back of my mind that seem to pop up at all the wrong moments. I find some comfort in knowing that you were my summer boy.

"Growing Pains"

I find it sad and almost humiliating that I'm sitting here crying and fully aware of the fact that I still love you.

I say this also fully aware of the fact that I hate your stinking guts.

"Never tell a [man] you love him, or he'll break your heart" -s.y.

"A simple piece of pie"

"One more thing about hope, and then I'm done: You kill it, bury it, write the epitaph; you go on doing something not because you believe it will lead to anything good but simply because you are an animal following your biological path, and each day is the same, in the sense of not being any better; and then, one day, for no reason that you can think of, there is a twitch of life, a pulse, a sign, and the thing thgat you buried without a eulogy comes back and stares at you in the mirror" -John Burnham Schwartz

My hope for living and succeeding and loving and laughing is staring at me, un-dead, in the mirror.

Two Names You Go By:
1. ChaCha
2. Lolita

Two Things That Scare You:
1. Loud noises
2. Failure

Two Everyday Essentials:
1. Eyeliner
2. Carmex

Two Things You are Wearing Right Now:
1. Grey shorts with "HOWARD" written across the booty
2. Burgundy nail polish

Two Things You Want in a Relationship:
1. For it to work
2. Love

Two Truths:
1. I am obsessed with list making
2. I had never tasted kool-aid before coming to HU

Two Things You Hate:
1. Being ignored
2. Sitting idle

Two Things that Physically Appeal to You:
1. On myself or on someone else??
2. On myself-my legs & ass On a man-strong calves

Two Favorite Hobbies:
1. Writing
2. Does being a socialite count?

Two Things You Want Really Badly:
1. To become Paris Hilton
2. Happiness within myself

Two Places You Want to Go on Vacation:
1. Thailand
2. Greece

Two Things You Want to do Before You Die:
1. Pose for Playboy
2. Meet my definition of success

Two Ways You are Stereotypically a Guy/Chick:
1. I wear makeup every day
2. I constantly gripe about my weight

Two Things that You Wouldn't Normally Admit:
1. I was once in love
2. I didn't cry in Bambi

Two People that You Would Like to See Take This Quiz:
1. Anyone who is bored
2. Someone that I love